Trepidation

Countdown to departure: 24 days
Countdown to culture shock: 209 days

Where is my discipline?

I went to Tong's today to practice, and wound up talking to her for six hours. I don't even want to get into everything we talked about - anything I could think of to keep from doing what I knew I needed to do. By the time we got down to studying, I was so burdened with guilt and exhaustion that I only had about 10 minutes of energy left in me before I had to leave.

Right now I'm just so... ugh. So worn down. Cross-cultural communication is a bitch. Already feeling like I don't want to leave the country. I don't even want to leave my bedroom. I'll let you know tomorrow when the feeling passes.

Got a party-full of Chinese people to meet tomorrow night, going to need some hardcore rest and meditation in the meantime.